Sacrifice of the Pawn: Spin-Off of the Surrender Trilogy (Surrender Games Book 1) by Lydia Michaels

Author:Lydia Michaels [Michaels, Lydia]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Lydia Michaels Books, LLC
Published: 2017-09-25T23:00:00+00:00

Chapter Twelve

“A sacrifice not shed, is an invitation to pin, a weakness waiting to happen.”

~Christos Patras

It took a solid week before Isadora could accept the truth. The Monday following the breakup was one of the most insufferable nights of her life, the inescapable proof that they were over forced her to confront how much she wished they were still together, despite her knowledge that she deserved a man who wanted her.

No. Sawyer did want her, but he couldn’t come to terms with his desires.

He pushed her away because he loved her enough to want something better for her future, something bigger than what he could offer. As much as that unspoken truth should have comforted her, it didn’t. He was a coward.

Watching her mother grovel for her father, even after his countless affairs, had scarred Isadora. Her mother’s blatant lack of self-respect caused Isadora to vow long ago never to let a man humiliate her in such a way.

Had her mother walked away when her father first discarded their marriage, vows, and affection, she might have found true happiness, someone who deserved her loyal heart. But she stayed, a thorn bird intent on bludgeoning its vulnerable heart in want of the impossible.

Isadora could not— would not —give her heart to someone who didn’t want it. Yet, for all her pride, she couldn’t stop herself from loving Sawyer.

In the weeks that followed she suffered a steady argument with herself, debating his logic against her inner desire to go back to him. But she couldn’t go back. She would not sacrifice her dignity for a man who refused to give his heart.

It took every bit of self-possession not to call him or go to his house. Seducing him into bed wouldn’t be much of a challenge, but it also wasn’t a solution. The solution was finding someone willing to give her everything she deserved.

She and Sawyer never lacked chemistry. But going back to him after being so resolutely pushed away would get them nowhere. He told her to go after the life she desired—and damn him for knowing her so well. But she also desired him and those feelings didn’t fade easily.

Their definitions of happiness were drastically different and she believed that was due to timing. Had she been born earlier, caught him at a different stage of life, they could have made each other perfectly happy, had a family, gotten married. But there was no changing reality.

She loved a man who refused to love her back, because he believed he couldn’t fulfill her needs.

It was a wretched awareness and one she wished she could shut off. She certainly didn’t want to suffer anything close to this heartache again. Which made the probability of her finding someone else, trusting someone else with her heart, absolutely implausible.

Love simply hurt too much. And if she fell in love again, the fall might very well kill her.

He was her confidant, her adviser, her sounding board and closest friend. He listened to her, knew her inside and out.

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